Every year I pick a theme for the new year. 2020’s theme was “Groundbreaking”. My theme was a prediction that monumental change was coming for my life and that I would be breaking ground to start a new chapter. Little did I know part of that monumental change would be a world wide pandemic! Corona aside, how true did this year live up to my theme?! (The answer is: VERY!) This year took a slow start as our worlds were shaken by the pandemic (when the world shakes, what happens to the ground? It BREAKS!). As a result, I lost my job. However, it is the same reason why I got my new one, which is a full time teacher, which is what I always wanted!! Once I got that job, I moved to Sandusky where it (and Jeff) are located! This was my first move out of my parents house and away from my family! I began my job, fell in love with teaching upper elementary (4-6th). Then COVID hit me. And I survived. It was NOT fun. Last but not least: I GOT ENGAGED!!!!!! I’m going to marry the most wonderful man I ever could’ve imagined marrying! I’m so blessed to call him MINE! Talk about a groundbreaking year!! I said I knew huge change was coming to start a new chapter of my life and 2020 delivered!! This is just the beginning! So what is my theme for 2021? “Stay.” I’m stealing this from a friend of mine. He spoke at our young people’s service one Sunday night and mentioned how God has told him to “Stay”. What this means essentially is stay where you’re at and trust in God. I’m using this message as well and adding a key word for my theme of “Stay”. That key word is “enjoy”. “Stay” where you’re at, trust God, and enjoy! Every year I have had these themes and the themes usually revolve around what change, growth, or improvement the new year will bring. As I was recapping 2020 while writing this, I prayed what my theme for this new year should be. I had zero clue! When suddenly the sermon on “stay” popped into my head. That’s when I realized, I’m so incredibly happy with where my life is right now and the person I am, I will gladly “stay” in this moment. Not to say nothing will change this year. Change is inevitable, and I would love for things to change or progress in areas of my life in the new year! But those things are not a focus for me. Will I strive to be better? Of course! Will I welcome positive change? The best that I can! But my sole focus for 2021 will be to stay, trust, and enjoy! I want to soak up every precious moment of this year of my life and enjoy! I’ve finally reached an area of my life I’ve always wanted to be in! A job that I love, with a man that I love, planning our wedding, our future, and awaiting what God has in store for us! It’s a wonderful feeling and a “magical” time! I can’t wait to stay in the moments of 2021, trust what God I’d doing for us, and enjoying every moment He is going to bless us with! And if you ask me, we could all use this theme as our outlook for this new year! “Stay” with me this year! Much love and God bless, -X
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The year is once again coming to an end. As usual, this means I am doing a lot of reflecting.
Going into 2019 my goal was to be fierce. I stated “I want to be the strongest, bravest, fearless version of myself yet! I want to believe in myself more than I ever have. I want to make a difference, be the change, and I want God to use the passion He has placed in my heart to be fiercely successful and reach my goals! I want every part of me to be fierce!” 2019 brought some of my biggest and hardest challenges but had some great moments as well: -I started student teaching -I joined Kappa Delta Pi honors society -Student teaching had to end suddenly and be postponed. -I was supposed to graduate, then didn’t because of the situation above. -Treated myself to a week at Disney World -I turned 26 -I started questioning everything I ever knew -I became a leader in my job -My confidence sky rocketed -I learned and grew a lot in my faith -I spoke a mini sermon on a Sunday at a youth retreat -I got my own office -Began student teaching again -I quit student teaching -I checked myself into the psychiatric ward at a hospital and stayed for a week -God brought me out of that mindset with a beautiful dream that He healed me -I gained an amazing support system -I met the most incredible man who loves me -I got my first car Given everything that has happened this year, I’d say I was fierce. It is definitely not what I thought was going to happen this year. And it’s not exactly how I thought I’d be fierce. But I was. I got through some of the hardest moments I’ve ever had in my life. And I handled them well. When I needed help, I got it, even though it was met with more challenges. I made super hard decisions. I learned. I grew. I met everything with fierceness. I refused to let anything break me. I refused to let others opinions define me. I refused to let my depression beat me and I refused to let the enemy weasel his way back into my life. I was strong. And brave. And fearless. I believed in myself. I was successful. I was fierce. For 2020 I decided the theme will be Groundbreaking. Groundbreaking, as in starting anew. Innovative. Pioneering. Starting new change. 2020 is going to bring HUGE change. I feel it. And it’s terrifying! But it’s going to be groundbreaking! It’s going to start a new chapter in my life and mark a new way of doing things. It’s going to be a new beginning! 2019 is the end of the decade. The end of this chapter in my life. 2020 is starting a new one. There is so much change coming! So many new things are going to happen! But because of the fierceness that 2019 brought me, I feel more confident than I ever have that I’ll be able to face this change head on and allow it to be a positive experience. I believe I have a firm foundation in God that will keep me not only steady, but secure throughout the change. This is the first time I really have no idea what this next year is going to bring. But I feel like it’s going to be bigger than ever. Monumental. Only God knows what’s coming, but whatever happens, I have plans on making this an amazing chapter in my life, because I feel like it’s going to be an important one. Change is coming! Let’s start breaking ground and embrace the new chapter that’s beginning! Get excited! Have a happy New Year! Much love and God bless, -X What led me to this point does not matter when sharing my story. I know what happened.
But the matter of the fact is that something did happen that brought me to tell this story. This testimony. There’s always a test in order to create a testimony. November 2nd was a Saturday. I made an appointment with my therapist for that Tuesday. I knew I was struggling worse than usual lately. I recognized the signs. Tuesday came and I walked in to my appointment. An hour appointment became 2 hours, and two hours became 3, and suddenly I was in an ambulance headed for the hospital. Today is Monday and I am home from the hospital. I spent a week in the psychiatric unit of a hospital. This is why I talk about these types of subjects. I spent a week in the psychiatric unit of a hospital and it was one of the most normal, safe, and comforting places I’ve ever been. The group in my hall consisted of 7-8 people of the week I was there. A chunk that consisted of people in my age group, the rest ranging various adult ages. Let me say this right now: not a single one of those people were “crazy”! I made friends with all of them almost instantly. The intelligence everyone had in our group, how raw and real our discussions were-it still blows my mind! I related to every person in my group, because we were all dealing with the same things. We’re all just average people struggling with anxiety, depression, addiction, guilt, self-awareness, stress, loving ourselves, and yes, suicidal thought and/or actions. The group consisted of students, moms, dads, spouses, teachers, etc. Mental illness does not discriminate! Because that’s real life. This stuff happens, it’s real. And it’s something much more people deal with every day than we all realize. Now that that’s out of the way. Let me continue with my story. I did not attempt to take my life. However, the thoughts were there. Did I WANT to take my life? Not at all. But the thoughts were there. Do I realize how extremely blessed I am and know that God is in control and I do not have to feel this way because He’s an awesome God? 100% yes! But the thoughts were still there. And that’s exactly why I went to the hospital. Because I recognized what was happening and I know better now. I know I don’t have to feel this way, and that I shouldn’t feel this way. I am human and I had a weak period of time. But in my weakness, God gave me the strength and courage to seek help, like I have never done before. It was terrifying. And hard. And painful. But worth it! And the day before I left, Sunday, I woke up that morning early with a dream God blessed me with: In the dream I was at a church event, it seemed like a conference of sorts. I was in a hallway outside the meeting and my Grandpap Calabrese walked into the hall. I called out “Pap!” And he looked at me and smiled and said “Happy Birthday!” I replied, “Pap, my birthday is in May...and my spiritual birthday is in April. It’s not my birthday.” But he looked at me, insisting, and repeated “Happy Birthday!” Then I hugged him and he walked away. That was the end of the dream. I woke up with the song “Born again” by Third Day stuck in my head. I soon realized that God was giving me a clean slate. He’s telling me He is erasing everything that I’ve been struggling with. That I no longer have to worry about those things anymore. He’s removing it all and healing me of these thoughts! That Sunday I was born again. I now have THREE birthdays! The day I came into this world, the day I gave my life to Christ, and the day He healed me of those thoughts. I am made new AGAIN! How amazing is that?! So yes, I was a patient at a mental hospital. Yes, I was struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts. Yes, I sought help, and God blessed me greatly in the process! Yes, needing help for your mental health is NORMAL. Let’s talk about it. Much love and God bless, -X Have you ever felt so lost but so found at the same time? You’re not sure where your life is going, but you’re at peace with that. Like you’re not sure what is coming, but you know when it does, it’s going to be something good. That when it comes, it’s going to make sense and piece everything back together. I recently had a meltdown. It was probably my biggest meltdown in a long time, to be honest. I’ve been dealing with a lot. I’ve been sick constantly. My coworker/friend passed away suddenly. Everything hit me all at once and I suddenly couldn’t breath. Keep it together, Kristina. You need to focus. But I couldn’t focus. Because I couldn’t breathe. Looking back, I think the problem was I didn’t have time to process my feelings with everything I had going on. I was sick and tired. I was in shock. I was sad.... Hurt. Angry. Confused. Frustrated. Scared. Panicked. Stressed. But there was no time to feel any of these things. There was too much to be done. Too much at stake. People say, well isn’t that life? Yes. It is. But sometimes in life your body or your mind can’t handle it all. Those times are life as well. This was one of those times in my life. Everything was hitting me at once. At every angle. And I broke down. I said I was fine. I was keeping it together. And then I wasn’t. I never cried so hard in my entire life. And that’s when I knew, I couldn’t do it all anymore. It wasn’t doing me any good. I wasn’t doing any good. My best wasn’t being put forward. I was barely getting by. I quit student teaching. It still hurts my heart to say it. I feel like a failure when I bring it up. But I also feel great relief. And I feel such strong hope and joy for the future. I see so many possibilities and directions I can go in. I feel happiness and peace. I’m still getting my degree. I just will not have my teaching license. Maybe I’m not finishing the conventional way. And yes, I was so close to finishing. But I wasn’t finishing well. I physically, mentally, and emotionally was not well. The work I was completing wasn’t well. However, I am completing a giant piece of my puzzle. A huge chunk can be checked off of my list. This is not a step back. This is STILL a step forward. This is still progress. It may not be the exact progress I thought I was going to make, but it doesn’t make it any less of an accomplishment. It just means there’s much more that I get to discover. There’s another piece to my puzzle I didn’t even know I NEEDED. My puzzle is much bigger and better than I thought it was! How exciting it is to discover a missing piece; to realize you’ve finished a huge chunk and now are beginning to complete another one! And how calming it is to see God working in our “messes” and turning them into messages that say: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This is just one part of Gods plan for my life. There’s a whole other part that He has planned, and I can’t wait to see what He has in store for me! Much love and God bless, -X Let’s talk about the “taboo” topics of church
Men’s roles vs women’s roles Homosexuality BOM Any and all questions most of us have but are too afraid to ask because 1) You feel like you can’t ask or 2) You’re embarrassed I hope I got your attention. Because the young people NEED your attention. I cannot and will not pretend that I can speak for everybody. However, I will say that I KNOW that this post will relate to MANY. Our church can do better. This is a fact. The young people can also do better. This is also a fact. Both are true because there is always room for improvement. I want to make this clear. That this post is not blaming or blasting the church or anyone for that matter, but a “wake up call” or a “call to action” that the young people need your help. Yes we have gmba camp, yes we have YIA, yes we have many things to offer. But they are lacking a HUGE component, and it’s what I mentioned in the beginning. The taboo topics. I like to think of this as “the basics”. Why can men be ministers and not women? (Our church’s belief) Why are we against homosexuality? (Our church’s belief) Why do we believe in the Book of Mormon? (Our church’s belief) This is why I call all those hard questions the basics, because they are. They are just some of the unique basics that set our church a part from others. And yet many young people do not understand WHY. Myself included (in the learning process) The Ohio area had a youth retreat weekend recently with the theme “What we believe and why we believe it” It was the most refreshing and fulfilling church event I have ever been apart of. It was raw. And real. “Taboo” topics were covered. “The basics” were covered. Why are we THE church? What does that mean? Why do we believe ___? The easy answer to these questions would be “Because it says so in the scripture” and maybe you even quote the scripture to back those beliefs up. That’s great! But sometimes just pointing someone to scripture isn’t enough. Sometimes we don’t understand what we are reading. Or we think we do, but we actually don’t. Or we’re using scripture not in KJV (Another question: why is that “wrong”??) My point to this whole thing is, we were given the opportunity to “go there” and talk about the things that are not talked about nearly enough. My point is leaders of our church made themselves available, and made it known, that we could TRUST them and ask the hard questions. My POINT is: This needs to be made into a normal thing, not a special occasion. I try to live by the saying “Normalize hard conversations” because the more we talk about something we consider as hard, we realize two things. 1) It becomes easier to talk about and 2) I’m not the only one that feels this way BONUS: you realize it’s not that weird and actually more common than you thought. And when people realize that last one, and continue to speak about the hard stuff, the more speaking about such topics is normalized therefore more and more people feel they can open up and get the help they need. And isn’t that the whole point? To help the young people. To bring them closer to Christ. To get them more involved in the church? The young people want that too. And I can tell you a great place to start. When there’s a problem, you start from the beginning. How can you help the young people? Start with the basics. Much love & God bless, -X This milestone snuck up on me. This is something I haven’t really thought about in a long time. That’s a good thing because it means my mind is in a good place, however, reflection is something I find extremely important.
“If you could see where Jesus brought me from to where I am today. Then you would know the reason why I love Him so” These words are not just song lyrics, but such a true statement! 8 years ago Jesus helped me to end my addiction to cutting. It was something I did because at the time it was the only thing I could think of to help me cope and survive. 8 years ago Jesus brought me from a mind that was so dark and confused, that I thought if there was a God, He wanted me to take my own life. So that’s what I planned on doing that summer. 8 years ago I was cutting several times an hour...a minute....because it helped me breathe and released my anxiety for a short moment. 8 years ago I was going to give into the voices telling me “nows the time, do it, no one can stop you, end it all!” 8 years ago, as if someone just turned on a light switch, that darkness was all able to go away. I haven’t cut since this day 8 years ago. I just stopped cold turkey. I still can’t get over that!! Did the thoughts go away? No. Were the voices still there prompting me? Yes. But this was the beginning of my conversion. The voices weren’t as tempting, because I knew better. They screamed at me and pushed me to the edge, but this is when I learned that I didn’t have to jump off the edge just because that’s where I was. I can call on Jesus, and He will remove and destroy the obstacles in my way not allowing me to walk away from that edge. Let me make clear, that I still struggle. Not everyday, but every so often my past tries to sneak back in. Sometimes it succeeds, but just because it visits doesn’t mean it gets to take up residence again. I still have anxiety. I still get depressed. Sometimes, I still want to cut. That’s how my brain was wired for a long time. It’s still my first instinct when I’m upset. But it doesn’t win! That darkness doesn’t live here anymore. It doesn’t get to control me. Now, Jesus lives here and I give God control! He changed my life completely in a moment. After that moment, I was convinced. I saw hope for the first time in four years, and I wanted that feeling to stay. 8 years ago was almost the end, instead it was the beginning of a new life! At work I had to take a personality test. This test rated me as a “Type 6” “The Loyal Person who defends their team.”
The part of the description of type 6 that had me feeling completely exposed was “Ironically, though Sixes do not trust their own thinking, they are usually incredibly thoughtful and analytical. They are especially excellent troubleshooters because they tend to dwell on worst-case scenarios and are fueled by anxiety. Once committed to their tribe of choice, Sixes are stalwart champions of those they have come to view as family.” Let’s break this down. I over think and analyze a lot, I have a bunch of anxiety, and I am committed to those I care about. I want to focus on the last part of the description for this post. This has me laughing out loud because I think this sums up a big part of my personality. I do not trust easily. If I trust you, it’s because I feel safe and connected with you. Moving as much as I have and going through things I have gone through, it has taught me NOT to trust others. I spent a good few years trying to knock down the wall I built from those instances in order to begin letting others in again as not to completely isolate myself. Therefore, when I’ve decided that I can trust you. And it’s been proven that I can. And I can see that you are someone who is caring and in my corner...I want you and the world to know how amazing I think you are. I am not saying others should be honored that I find them trusting. I am shouting from the mountain tops how blessed I feel that these people have taken their time to include me in their lives and I want everyone to know how special they are. I want everyone to know how God is using them and that the spirit that they carry makes a difference. That THEY make a difference. So I just want to take a moment and dedicate this post to all of those people in my life. I feel extremely blessed lately with so many people I feel that I can trust and turn to for help, guidance, love, and laughter. Thank you for supporting me in my times of need. Thank you for the grace you have given me at my lowest points. Thank you for sharing a smile or a hug every day we see each other. Thank you for all your encouragement and advice. Thank you for inspiring me to learn and grow and be a better person. Thank you for making me feel like family. Thank you for insisting that we ARE family. Thank you for continuing text conversations when they fall at a pause. Thank you for constantly checking in. Thank you for reminding me what I am capable of. Thank you for reminding me that God has blessed me with the light that I carry. Thank you for praying for me and with me. Thank you for taking time out of your busy days to help me. Thank you for late nights chats and answering all my questions. Thank you for pushing me when I debate because I don’t understand. Thank you for your patience when I push because I don’t understand. Thank you for reminding me that I am loved. Thank you for reassuring me time and time again that I am not a burden. Thank you for not ghosting me even though I’m one of those people who send several texts back to back. Thank you for laughing at my jokes and awkward humor. Thank you for accepting me and all my awkwardness. Thank you for loving me and all my awkwardness. Thank you for being my team. My team are those that I am in contact with practically, if not, every day. Or those that I can go periods of time without speaking to and pick up where we left off. I want you to know you are my people. You are my team. You are so cared for and loved and appreciated. Words can never describe how thankful I am for each of you. I feel things deeply and intensely and that includes my love for you all. It may be “odd”, but I don’t care. If we care for someone and see something great in a person, I believe we should ALWAYS tell them! Thank you for being awesome. I am so blessed God is using you in my life. Much love and God bless, -X Have you ever felt so much love in your heart that you can’t find the words to describe it? You’re just filled with an insane amount of passion and you have no idea what to do with it or how to use it. This has been my current state for the past few weeks.
I’m obsessed with this feeling and yet so incredibly frustrated because I don’t know how to channel it. What am I supposed to do with this strong desire? What is it that my heart is looking for? I narrowed it down to my two biggest passions in life. Spreading Gods love and working with youth. I felt this many years ago and tried to pursue it, but there was only so much I could do at the time with the situation I was in. I tried to force a few things to happen, because I’m me and like control, but I realized if it was meant to be it wouldn’t need to be forced. So I tried to contain myself and be patient. I started college to get my degree in secondary education (which changed to early childhood education) and continued to be active in my church as much as possible. Fast forward to now. I’m near the very end of getting my degree. I’ve had several jobs working with children. My current job being at an after school program with the Salvation Army Kroc center. And I’m in love! I was super confused at first. What did these feelings mean? What is making me love it so much? It’s Jesus. And youth. It’s literally spreading God’s love to children of all ages! Not just the littles that steal my heart but the big kids and teens too that inspired me to go into teaching in the first place! Lord knows I can’t teach those tweens and teens academics, but I can love and care for them to the moon and back! So again, I’m realizing this, and asking God what in the world does this mean? I’d still love to be a teacher, but this feeling is so great, is this a redirection? Am I supposed to do something else? Or something more? I don’t know what’s happening. I don’t know what God is doing in my life currently. All I know is that this feeling is with me 24/7. All I know is that it’s all I can ever think about. It’s all I ever want to talk about. I am filled from my head to my toes with love for Jesus and the youth. And I have no idea what to do with this love. I pour it out as much as I can each day at work and it never feels like it’s enough. I want to do more, but I don’t know how. I want it to be my whole life! How I feel during the after school program is how I want my entire day to feel, not just my evenings. I want my days filled with spreading the love of God and working with children. I don’t know how else to word what I’m feeling. None of what I’ve said feels like it’s enough to explain how deeply and strongly I feel this. I just feel like if I don’t express it or share it somehow, in some way, I feel as if I may explode. Maybe I’m obsessive. Maybe I’m crazy. But if I’m going to be either of those things, I’m thankful that I’m obsessive and crazy for Jesus and His work. Much love and God bless, -X (The Jesus Freak). Before I post this blog entry I need to let you know why I began writing this one in the first place. This was supposed to be an about me essay for my student teaching supervisor who will evaluate me in the classroom. He wanted a two page essay all about me and he said the more detail the better so he understands the type of person he is dealing with and has a background of why I want to be a teacher. This is what resulted in that attempt. I feel like this is some of my best writing I have ever done and cannot believe how I saw God just take over my keyboard as I went to write this! I knew I had to share it on here, so here it is! :)
My name is Kristina Calabrese, I am 25 years old, and I want to change the world. As a child, I thought to do this I had to be famous. I wanted to be a singer, an actress, and an author. I wanted a platform to get a message across; to inspire others and spread joy. I did not understand that this is what I was truly looking for until I was 20. Until that point I thought I just had a flare for the dramatic. While that is partially true, I didn’t necessarily want to be famous, I just wanted to make a difference, and my little brain thought that the only way to do this was to be famous. I was born here in Ashland, Ohio. Since then I have moved 10 times. The first time was age 3 to Bellevue, Ohio. The second time was at age 6 to Mesa, Arizona. 6 months later we moved again to Apache Junction, Arizona. When I was 8, we moved to Leonardtown, Maryland. At age 12, we moved to Fredonia, Pennsylvania for one year. After that, we landed back in Ashland until I was 18 and graduated from Ashland High School. From there, we moved to Mainville, Ohio, 2 different locations in Dearborn, Michigan, and then back to Ashland again. To really get to know me you need to know my testimony. In high school I was severally depressed. There is no logical reason for me to have been so depressed. I had, and still have, a loving family, we’re involved in church, and always had a good life no matter what came our way. Despite all of this, depression hit me hard my freshman year of high school and I became addicted to cutting. Throughout high school this continued, and I became very suicidal as well. I did not plan to graduate. It was all I could do just to get up in the morning let alone complete assignments and plan for my future. Only because of God and amazing teachers and counselors at Ashland High school did I make it to graduation. I believe I graduated with a 1.7 GPA. I planned to take my life a month later. My support system from high school was gone, I was getting ready to move again, lose my friends again, and I had no plans for the future. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, except that I did not see a point in living anymore. My mind was in such a dark place that I began to believe that God actually wanted me to take my life. Long story short, I messaged someone from our church, told them everything, and they helped me find Jesus for myself and I surrendered it all to Him. It was truly like someone flipped a light switch and I honestly believe I experienced all of that pain to strengthen my faith in The Lord. In 2013 after I was baptized I felt that I could finally attempt a higher education. I knew it had to be online because I had a feeling where we were currently located, in Dearborn Michigan, was not going to be for very long. Grand Canyon University popped out at me because purple is my favorite color but captured my attention when I discovered it was a Christian university. I planned on becoming a high school English teacher. I wanted to be there for others like my teachers were there for me. I obtained a 4.0 GPA from 2013-2016 in secondary education, but then woke up one morning convinced I had to switch to early childhood and had no idea why. Once I switched, everything began to fall into place. I got a job in a preschool, which counted towards practicum hours, and it turned out that week was my only chance to switch majors, as it was the ending of my current academic year, which I did not realize. Since then I have worked in 3 different preschools in town, the Kroc Center summer camp for 2 summers, the Kroc Center after school program, and volunteered in a 3rd grade classroom for a few months before student teaching began. I am absolutely in love with working with children and know without a doubt this is what I am supposed to be doing and that God has made this path for me. When I was a child I wanted to be famous. I wanted to inspire others, spread joy, and change the world. God knew all of this. He made me a teacher to be famous. He gave me a testimony to inspire others. He had me live in many different places and meet many different people to spread joy. Through all of that, He has given me confidence, that with Him, I will be able to change the world. Much love and God Bless, -X At the end of last year I made my goal for 2018 to “Be Extraordinary”. I was looking back recently, and as I usually do, I over analyzed. I thought and thought and then thought some more...was I extraordinary? I don’t feel like I made the year as a whole EXTRAORDINARY.
Then I broke my year down and really thought about what I did this year. -I had weight loss surgery, and since then I’ve lost over 100lbs! -I turned 25 -I flew across the country on my own and back again. -I did Campout, Universal, and Disneyland all within two weeks. -I’ve made so many new connections, all of which I love! -I started a new job -I began volunteering at Edison elementary. -I flew to Georgia on a whim and got Zumba Kid certified! -I’ve finished my last class before student teaching. The negative Nancy that lives in my head is telling me that’s not enough. That’s all I did? What did that accomplish? Well, I’d say that’s the most extraordinary I’ve ever lived. I lost ONE HUNDRED POUNDS. I flew on not one, but FOUR different planes. I saw the ocean! I danced with Tigger! I completely stepped out of my comfort zone with doing Zumba! In fact, everything I listed above is completely out of my comfort zone! I’m just realizing this as I’m writing. This whole year was WAY out of my comfort zone! That’s huge stuff because my anxiety is no joke! This year may not have panned out like I thought, but I did live this year extraordinarily! So what will my goal be for 2019? Be fierce! I want to be the strongest, bravest, fearless version of myself yet! I want to believe in myself more than I ever have. I want to make a difference, be the change, and I want God to use the passion He has placed in my heart to be fiercely successful and reach my goals! I want every part of me to be fierce! Whatever comes my way I want to tackle it. I don’t want to forget, even for a minute, that I am a daughter of the one true King and nobody can take my crown! I am the best version of myself I have ever been! If there was ever a time that I could reach this level of fierceness and be an even better me, a more confident, unstoppable me, it’d be this year approaching! The limit does not exist for the possibilities of 2019! Because I am His, I am fierce. And because I am Fierce, I will change the world! Or at least, my world. Be fierce with me this new year! Much love and God bless, -X |
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